Tuesday, June 07, 2011

good news

My sister had a scan today. She is 8+3 and they saw a strong heartbeat. I can just hear the relief shining through the text messages and emails she sent, though she is cautious too as her second pregnancy (this is her fourth) ended in the tenth week after seeing a heartbeat in the 8th. I just hope that this works out for her because she has had such a crap year and I know she is worried that she will never have a baby of her own and that she is too old (and mental!) to adopt. I have been worried about her because in recent days se has talked to me a lot about her depression and the effect this is having on her relationship. I hate to see her so unhappy and knowing that there's nothing I can do or say to help. I didn't have 3 miscarriages so I don't know exactly how she feels but I do know how it felt to have 1 and to have fertility issues so I imagine she feels even worse than I did.
I do know that as soon as you have a baby all that upset disappears and even as soon as you get past 12 weeks, then 20 weeks, then 34 weeks... it all starts to fade away bit by bit.

My brother and his wife are due to have a baby in the next few weeks. I imagine that will be hitting hard for my sister so I just hope this pregnancy is viable and that she doesn't end up having to deal with becoming and aunt and losing another baby all in one go.

Other good news is that my friend Becs is coming to Glastonbury and will be camping with us.. She's had a shit year with her mum dying and a friend killing himself a couple of weeks ago. I just hope she has a better rest of the year, maybe this could be the start.

Saturday, June 04, 2011

Baby Led Weaning

Wow... It's been ages since I blogged last. Everything is going well here; B is now 24 weeks-ish and today we gave him a little bit of food to try for the first time. It was strange watching him taste it all as he's only had breastmilk up to now. It felt kind of wrong. We're doing Baby Led Weaning and it's a bit scary because he did gag a couple of times. totally normal but scary. I don't want to be the panicking mum bit it's really hard not to want to leap up and grab the food out of his mouth!

I have sorted out his Creche place, he will be going Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday and mum will be having him on Wednesdays. There was a moment when I thought he might not have a place but we managed to sort it out. Plan is I will go back to work Mid-September though I will be taking holiday too.

My sister is pregnant again, fourth time in just over a year. I really hope it works out for her but she is freaking out which is really not surprising given that she has miscarried so many times. She is being really really negative, again very natural. I just wish she could stop stressing about the stuff which hasn't happened yet. Like how will she survive on maternity leave and so on.

SIL had a baby boy towards the end of March. 
I am still co-sleeping, still breastfeeding. D and I are doing fine even though at times it is stressful and I often feel like I am doing most of the hard work. This will change when I finally get B onto a cup and he's less reliant on my breasts. He is a wonderful child. I am sure all parents say that but he really honestly is so chilled most of the time, a really easy baby. He doesn't 'sleep through' but he does go right back to sleep after a night feed. He doesn't 'self settle' but will be rocked to sleep easily and in minutes. I know for a lot of people the aim is to get babies to a stage where they can be left to their own devices but you know what, I like hugs and I like singing to him and I don't want to stop co-sleeping so I am doing what I feel is right for me. It'll all even out in the end.

I got my Glastonbury ticket today and will be there in 3 weeks with B. Can't wait, just hope it is sunny.